We’re more often than not burdened by how people perceive us and how we want to be perceived. And to influence the way others see us means we have to be wide awake at all times, that is fully aware of our behavior. So we choose to sweep the dirt under the rug because we either ignore and deny our problems or want to conceal from public view something we find unappealing, humiliating or harmful to our reputation.
However, our unconsciousness is quite a wicked player (read: jerk!), which means there’s often a discrepancy between what we say and do. In other words, our non-verbal communication speaks volumes about us (and who gave you permission, if I may ask?). Our body language is irrefutable evidence of our guilt, if you will, i.e. to sugar coat it (ok, ok, just a little. I do have a sweet tooth, you know), a pretty strong indicator of how we think and feel.
In my previous couple of posts (THE ART OF BEING HONEST and DO NEUROTICS HAVE A DAY OFF?), I kinda asked my therapist friend to help me interpret my non-verbal communication. I gotta admit it’s not easy to be me sometimes (ok, most of the time). I don’t always understand my actions and reactions myself, let alone people around me (poor them!) Anyhow, those were more rhetorical questions (and way too much to ask). Besides, I’m too poor to afford a shrink in Germany. So I took it upon myself to perform my body (read: brain and heart) scan with the help of the psychological articles and tests I found (where else?!) on the web. Hail, Internet!
Even though my physical behavior surely conveys loads of information, I bet I won’t get answers to the questions like ‘what the heck is wrong with me,’ ‘why I am so messed up,’ ‘am I mendable or irrevocably damaged i.e. a lost case’(you see, I’m not sugarcoating it this time). But, I do hope it’ll help me embrace my vulnerability so that I could put up with myself easier (or at least make myself more presentable).
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